"it hurtful..."
Published on Friday, November 27, 2009
somehow i felt jealous in a sense...
but i dont know how i really feel//
like really deep dwn in my heart...
it is really hurtful to know that u said such stuff.
i didnt want to know it..!
i feel like treating it as if i didnt see it..
but somehow i just keep thinking over and over again//
i feel like hating you..
i alr, kinda hate u once before anyway..
it kinda over?
i seriously hate it now..
friends can good bu they can be really BAD and EVILL
hurting u like no body business...
now who can i really talk to..
u?
no way?
i am really tired of this whole damn thing
having to wake up and facing all this shyt stuff..
somehow i wish i could be sick and just slept all the way
without having to worry abt anything...
the feeling is just good
i need to get some rest now ):
seriously like SHIN WOO! JEREMY! KHJ!!
i really feel SAD!
"BIG DAY!?"
Published on Sunday, October 25, 2009
so tmr will be the kinda starting of the big day..
"first" written paper..
hope everything will goes well,
supposedly, this post should be for main blog..
but guess i shall remain it as private (:
hmm, i still have the being alone feeling...
don't wanna fall too deep for it..
有时感情太深，不一定是好事.
so i won't allow myself to devote so much in this relationship..
sometimes, i question myself..
is it worth it? refraining myself from others..
sometimes, i think is worth it..
cos in the end, they just take you for granted..
when they need you, they will be there..
but when you lost the value, they will kick you one side..
or maybe i am just a person that they need
in order to help them succeed in certain things...
i don't mind if u use me.. but at least, treat me as a real friend?
am i thinking too much?
even so, why do i felt this way?
there must be something wrong right? or something you did..
that make me feel this way...
ANYWAY, i should be more worried about tmr exams!
after Os it should just be me ... and my DRAMA !!
shall not hang out so often!!
okay, ciaos ..
deeply hope that everything goes well..
"still as evil..."
Published on Monday, October 12, 2009
nah, not in the good mood....
kinda speechless..
sometimes i wonder what friends are for actually~
shouldn't there not be any hatred between us..
but why am i starting to dislike you...
and this the reason why i always wanted to leave here...
and i definitely can leave everything here...
friends is obviously...
perhaps not family...!
slowly,i m starting to try to "yuan li" ppl...
choosing nt to go prom & some outings...
now, i think i can only trust myself...
just hate what is going on now...
"frank?"
Published on Friday, October 9, 2009
sometimes i wonder how can someone be so frank?
do you prefer people that are straight away or beat around the bush?
so what do you think?!
"sorry, you just crossed the line..."
Published on Thursday, October 8, 2009
i think somehow you just said the wrong things...
i didnt want to blog it out at first...
but sitting alone on my bed, my tears cant seems to stop
me, in the dark dark room.. didnt want any light...
i want no one to see me..
still, i decided to switch on the light and write this down...
(not to spoil my eyes also)
think my eyes have not been very good..
using my fingers to rub away my tears & my keypad now contain those salty tears of mine...
i know you didnt mean it.. but sad to say your words had hurt me..
it good to be frank..
but i dont need you to tell me i am fat?!, i mean i already know..
can u just stop reminding me again and again...
does it even matter to u that i am fat? i dont think so..
who wouldnt want to be silm.. stop telling me what to do..
if u are my fren.. u shldn't talk this way too...
i am not disappointed, not at all..
every single word that hurt me, i still rmb it..
it will take time for me to forget...
i am not like others...
though i may seems fine, but seriously sometimes i m not
i am still a human...
sorry but i have to say this, cos u really hurt me
it is just wrong to tell someone u are fat directly...
even though being straight forward is good..
but not everyone would be able to take it...
i may be able to take it, just treat it as a joke...
but this time round.. no no ...
seriously, now i just cant wait to leave this school
as i want a new environment...
i think i shld talk to you lesser?
it will be my wish to leave this country ....
PS: i will never be perfect...
"what do you represent?"
Published on Sunday, October 4, 2009
do u mean it? or are you just joking?!
fuck~ i seriously hate some people~!
no one is perfect though...
but please try not to be so asshole..
you know your words gonna affect me
and i seriously HATE it..
please think twice before you want to say anything!
cos i will rmb it for a very long time
and i will start to dislike you!
mark my words
"new life (:"
Published on
as much as i want to say something~!
i think i shall confess something here everytime (:
when i think i had no one to speak too :D
so now not in the mood to like say bad stuff of people..
so wait till next time when someone pisses me off!
this is just for me!